Post by kat on Jun 30, 2010 15:15:19 GMT -5
JACOB EPHRAIM BLACK.
SHIFTER . SIXTEEN . TAYLOR LAUTNER
all i need is you, come please i'm calling.[/CENTER]
GIRL NEXT DOOR.
bella came when life was pretty shitty. not that it was terrible - or that it got any worse, but it was just dull. don't think i hated life by any means, but la push days just seemed to blend together. i'd see embry, maybe quil, go to school - come home, see dad. sleep, rinse and repeat. she brightened things up and made it interesting... i'd ended up fixing up dad's old truck - we were gonna put it up for sale to bring in some extra cash.. charlie thought it'd make an awesome welcome home type present and i couldn't agree more - especially since i'd got to deliver it myself. the time went on and i got maybe.. well, i was persistent on seeing her. so sue me, she was entertaining and i enjoyed her company, more then i'd like to admit. there was just something about isabella swan that really grabbed me, you know? she started coming around la push a bit more and i think i ended up driving dad insane... i'd always pester him to head over to charlie's - even if there wasn't a game on.. blew up in my face when dad decided to mention that in front of her. really nice billy, real nice. as the time went on, bella came down to la push a lot more and well.. it started out as a little crush but i think i always knew it'd end up like this.. not that i'd added into the whole vampire aspect in my mind - that stuff was just legends at that point... legends that bella was interested in... then cullen came along and slowly i'd begin to see less of her.. and less of her.. until it was minimal. even when i'd end up going to charlie's with billy she'd never be home. "out with her new boy friend" charlie would always mention grudgingly. one , that hurt. two, he liked me more.
i tried to focus on fixing up the rabbit and simply ended up hanging with embry and quil more... we'd bum around the beach or play video games all night long, normal teen stuff... i'd occasionally see bella and make the most out of it. then bella went missing. i remember having a mini heart attack when billy told me. i'd thrown him in the car as quick as i could and pretty much sped the entire way to charlie's... even with the mini search party i was freaking out. people just don't go missing around here, and if they do a lot of the time they turn up dead weeks later lost in the woods. bella seemed like a smart girl so i ruled out the taking candy from a stranger. sure there was abduction via low life criminal and junk but i didn't really want to think about it. bella wasn't the most coordinated person and falling off a cliff seemed pretty likely.. when my imagination just about hit the breaking point sam came out of the trees with bella. relief was definitely better then then panic.. charlie ended up taking her inside and the doctor looked her over but that's just about the time dad said we had to go home - give them their space, y'know? it took a while to get the story but from what charlie said, edward had left... well, all the cullens had left. good riddance personally, dad didn't like them and even if it sounds silly - i didn't like them.. sure i was pretty.. let down that edward had 'gotten to her first' but that wasn't the only reason. even if the legends weren't true - there was something creepy and unnatural about the cullens. bella... well, bella was comatose for a long time.. i figured it was really her just adjusting and getting over the jerk - to just up and move? not cool at all - i of course didn't know at the time that bella had nearly died via the leeches brother. what kind of paper cut almost kills?
quil and i ended up hanging out more and i had to pull up my socks in school so homework was a huge downer... billy was pretty easy to get around with the whole home work issue.. hell, it was really easy to get out of the whole school issue too - i mean, it's not like i was failing i could miss a day or two here and there. it was going on forever since i'd even seen bella, then one day... well, i was pretty relieved to hear her old clunker pull into the drive way. she brought me some scrap metal . . . i was kind of confused at first, but bella was alive - and she was talking, and she wasn't a zombie locked up in her room. she could have asked me to build her a plane and i would happily done it for her if i knew how.. it was good to see her again, and even if she wasn't completely back to normal... she'd get there soon enough. we were pretty inseparable... bella thought we needed to establish some form of schedule so we didn't suddenly find ourselves failing in school. if bella wanted to do homework together, ... i was easily down, after all, more time with her - how could i complain? it didn't take too long to finish the bikes, roughly two weeks and they were good to go. a part of me felt a little worried that bella wouldn't stick around for long after that but it vanished almost as quickly as it'd came. then came teaching bella to drive them... that proved to be a little more difficult then i'd thought.. alright, so she wasn't a natural and when she'd ended up toppling off and hitting her head, i had a mini heart attack.
i faintly remember thinking about charlie taking me away in the back of his cop car for 'irresponsible actions with his daughter'. i had to give it to bella though, she was persistent the blood told me it was time to call it quits though.. i spent the evening in the E.R as she got stitched up. after that - things were good, quiet. for a month we managed to stay out of trouble and ended up hanging out almost every single day.. i think embry and quil got pretty jealous but i couldn't help the fact that i loved having bella around - and it's not like i didn't get to see them. i think quil liked bella a little too much though... everything was going perfect, i think even if she was shy to admit it - bella liked me, even if it was a tiny bit. i couldn't help but smile around her, bells was perfect. i felt bad when she told me newton asked her to a movie - i agreed to go because i was never one to turn down time with bella, especially since i hadn't particularly taken advantage of the movie theater scene before... everyone ended up canceling aside from the marshmallow and it was just us three. it has hard not to laugh every time he stumbled around bella, or couldn't get out his words right - total loser. she needed someone a little.. no okay, a lot more man then that. little mikey-poo couldn't stomach the movie and had to go puke up his dignity.i began to feel not so hot myself... and that's when everything changed.
ONE OF THE MONSTERS.
life sucks, and then you die. yeah, i should be so lucky. things used to be simple, things used to be great... well, as great as they could be. as most of la push knows, billy and sarah were my parents.. i had two pain in the ass sisters, and everyone obviously (or should of) pitied me for having to put up with them. i don't remember too much, but i've seen the pictures and it's enough to make you cringe. what kind of older sisters can put their younger brother into a dress and not feel bad? it only got worse from what i've seen... of course dad couldn't help but laugh at the image, nice, eh? they were the definition of gigantic pain in the ass. i don't know how old i was, but i remember walking in on rachel - she was trying to get a bowl down from the shelf or something and i guess she slipped - there it was smashed on the floor. she gave me a sucker to sit at the table while she ran. . . dad came in and found me sitting looking at this broken bowl. much of a wonder why i got in trouble? ha, their games didn't last for long though - it was like survivor. out wit, out last, out play. out wit... i was too young.. out play... again too young, but out last.. well, i guess i won at that one.
i'm still here aren't i? mom ended up getting into a car crash when i was pretty young and didn't make it.. over the years i'd gathered little pieces of information as to how it really went down.. i never would come out and ask what had happened because i knew it would kill dad to reopen that can of worms.. as for my sisters, well there were just some things you never asked. i waited for her to come home, even after dad said she was gone for good... at that age, you just don't get it, you know? rachel and rebecca were pretty torn up by it - as was i - but it was a different level. they had the whole mother daughter thing going on and despise the constant dress up, i was still a daddy's boy in their words. i have a hazy image of how it all went down, but some pieces still don't add up - even now when ever she's mentioned rachel gets all ridged.. it got pretty grim... no, it got really grim.. everyone kind of just shifted from what they were, you know? Rachel and Becca slowly... well, i guess some what came around.. i think they felt guilty for mom dying and being jerks all those years... or maybe they just matured.. regardless they tried to help when they could and fill in when they thought it was needed but it just wasn't the same and no matter how much they tried... well, it didn't matter that they tried because i did appreciate it, but i think in some ways it just hurt them, maybe reminded them a little too much of mom... dad was pretty quiet following her death, i'd always have to annoy him to no end but it always seemed to make him smile.. or yell. one of the two, it really depended on his mood. billy didn't always need to speak for me to know how he was feeling or what he was thinking... he was easy to read. if he was in pain, his eyes would look a little duller... if he was mourning, he'd try and avoid us.. if he was happy as a pig in crap, well he wouldn't shut up. i think things in our family always felt as if they needed to change - that simplicity and staying the same wasn't for us.
rachel couldn't wait to get out of there, and neither could rebecca. to be honest, i don't even remember where rachel went off to - i just remember never seeing from her, or hearing from her ... like ever. rebecca moved off to hawaii and met some surfer dude and fell in love... i remember that because of how ridiculous it was when dad relayed the message. like that, she dropped off the map too. the black family had went from five to two in only a matter of years. it's not like they died though, they just stopped caring.. dad says i'm too harsh on them, but really, wouldn't you be? i get the whole pain thing.. but we were all here, we all went through it... things never got too interesting from there, more so just kept up with quil and embry - exploring around the rez gets pretty old after a while, y'know? as for school, believe it or not there wasn't anything too interesting, for the most part... well, there was this one girl kinda in the summer, but things really didn't work out there.. nothing happened, thank god- she seemed a few turnips short a truck if you know what i mean.. then i guess the vampires came to town and. . . hello wolf boy. i'll be the first to admit it wasn't my finest moment. dad was on the phone with sam after i got home from the movies with bella and that marshmellow . . . everything seemed fine but knowing he was on the phone with sam? it made my blood boil, i don't even know what it was but the pain was hot under my skin, like a million little needles. earlier it was just the temperature, i felt strange even in my own skin, i couldn't describe it.. but then he looked at me, told me to calm down, it felt too weird. i was irrationally angry, like out of no where just bam.. that's when i felt it, the needles that were pricking jabbed into my skin, it felt like i was on fire, completely... it felt like my entire body was about to blow apart in a thousand pieces, like the saw films where there's a bomb inside of you or something sick.. it happened to fast and it was beyond hard to grasp, my head was suddenly hitting the celling, i was looking down at dad and he was terrified. i didn't get it - was sam in on this? what the fuck was happening to me? i went to yell at him, i wanted to know the fucking answer... instead a howl came, it was enough to send a chill down my spine, it didn't sound like me - it didn't feel like me. i tried to get in his face hoping he'd explain, hoping someone would come and explain, it felt like a sick fucking joke and i was confused, i wanted answers.. i wanted to bite him.
my jaw ached as i pressed forward, the low growl was so foreign to me but it made my insides rumble. i saw my reflection in his eyes, i saw the fear.. the child like tone he spoke to me in, the 'calming' words just made me more angry - this wasn't what i wanted. the room shook as i moved, but i needed to get out, i didn't want to attack billy but the instinct was there.. aching to be set into motion. then the voices came... like i didn't feel crazy enough as it was, right? i was so angry, yet... it felt right to be like this.. at the time, i just.. i couldn't take it in, it was all billy could do to get out of the way so i could leave.. i didn't want to hurt him, he was my dad - yet him being on the phone with sam set me off more then it should of.. i bolted beyond confused as the house shook behind me. to say i could feel everything would be an understatement, the emotions, voices, thoughts, the pictures - it all materialized, a million things burning at once, i felt deaf not being able to make out the jumble, i panicked, but then it stopped... it slowed.. the reassurance came. i could see embry, i could feel the sudden relief he felt and there i was still confused and angry.. but.. he was there and suddenly it made sense.. the entire time i'd been so angry at him but then he began explaining and it was like a thread coming undone... it'd made sense now.. sam hung back and let him explain - explain this new life. i thought i was living in a horror movie, and that i was one of the monsters. everything we'd ever heard on the rez had been true, all this werewolf crap was real. i was one of them. that night was a little too much to handle, i'll spare you all the crap but it ended up seeing the reason emily's face was mangled, the reason why embry ditched quil and i, and the reason i couldn't live a normal life. this was my life now , i was here to protect the people from the bloodsuckers, that was my purpose. forget school, i just had to try and not kill anyone. i will say right now that i ended up shifting back and crying like a little bitch, i spent the night out in the forest but.. at least i knew what we were up against now, right? since then not much has changed, we've got new pack members, and new leech shit to deal with- they just keep comin'.
THE BAD SIDE
cullen brings the bad side out. he's got this gift about him, completely able to ruin everything he touches. he near destroyed bella and that's just not something i'm going to let happen again. the blood suckers need to stay gone - the red headed one we can take, even her buddy. but.. if this lures the cullens back.. well no - not gonna happen. we'll just take care of this pest problem as soon as possible then be done with the leeches. bells is finally starting to get happy again - back to who she was - even if there are a few pieces missing... if he thinks he can storm back in here and act like nothing happened? he's dead wrong. with the leeches it's never simple - nothing is ever simple. she cut her finger, a paper cut... that's hardly a death sentence.. with someone has breakable as bella, a family of vampires is not the best choice for bffs. it was only a matter of time before something else happened, you know? what if she'd gotten a paper cut with just the moody one in the room? she would of died - sucked dry. the cullens and their little friends can stay gone. the pack and i have got this under control, we've just got some vampires to kill.
[/color] He snarled, each word coming out slowly laced with high tension. Jacob's nostrils flared, his chest continued to heave up and down. This had come from virtually no where, but the simplistic touch of the leech on Bella really did something to him. It wasn't bad enough that they'd taken her from him, that they'd kidnapped her without even a word to her father. "Remove,[/color] The small prickling sensation was back for the second time in the last hour, "Your hand.[/color] The blood was merely boiling blow his surface. "Now."[/color][/blockquote][/size]
"I should call him..." Sarcastically he found himself laughing. Call him? "Little late for that Bells," Worried sick was a complete understatement. It was safe to say that Charlie was going out of his mind? Hell maybe at this point in time Bella was reported as missing. Not so much as a note? With everything going on? Not the smartest move. "But I guess it's better late then never." Meaning packed tightly into his words as his brown eyes searched over hers, why did she have to be so stubborn? Jacob's body had went into over drive. Right now he was clinging to his reserve energy, reserve control and the reserved bit of filter that forced his words through attempting to take out the hurt. It was tragic but his filter wasn't working so well, he felt stubborn and even with her there... Well, it didn't make it all better but in the same sense it did. He felt whole again and even if it was only for the five minutes she was going to give him, it was five minutes more then he'd felt in the past week or so - so that was something, wasn't it? Would it hurt more to pull away - walk out the door and head home, or hurt more knowing he hadn't done all he could to save her? How could she be so blind as to what was good for her and what wasn't? The Cullens - They were her drug. She was addicted. No matter how badly they destroyed her inside and out, no matter how cruel and terrible they were - the high from the Cullens and Edward would triumph over everything she had. There was only so much Jacob could do to try and get her to quit it, to give it up and get healthy.. He was going to do absolutely everything he could before the drug killed her which it would ultimately try and do - once again.
The blood sucker on the couch began talking about mindless babble once again and it was a wonder to Jacob why they hadn't killed him already, Someone so idiotic and stupid? How on earth did he even fit into this family? When it came down to it though, this was a family that shouldn't have actually existed... The entire idea of it was just something else. Sure everyone needed family, but these were leeches. They were dead. They were nothing. Truth be told Jacob was an idiot for thinking so stubbornly but right now they were responsible for taking the one person that meant the world to him... He'd just fixed Bella.... She was Bells again. The mindless homophobic drabble continued on, yet remained completely ignored by Jacob. Everything was tuned out as Bella grasped at his warm hand squeezing ever so slightly. Even her touch was one of the frailest things he'd ever felt yet it could bend him like no other. There was a lot of talk about the whole imprinting scenario when it surrounded Jacob . . . Frankly if this wasn't it? He didn't want anything else. This was right, and this was what he knew. There would never be anyone else after Isabella Swan if it ever came to that.
"But first I'm gonna go visit Eddie and drag his ass home. If he's not gonna believe us, then I'm just gonna have to force him. " Jacob's eyes snapped to the mentally challenged vampire on the couch, He was kidding right? It was impossible not to notice the sudden difference in Bella, his gaze snapped back down to her as he nearly examined every little quiver in her expression. Protectively Jacob's hand fell to her side as if to steady her if something happened... It still hurt her. He still was able to hurt her even if he wasn't here. Maybe it was excitement? But it sure as hell didn't look like that to Jake. "You okay?" Jake questioned quietly clearly concerned. She was going to be okay, right? How long could they fuck her over like this? "Bella?" Again he questioned going out of his way to make sure she'd look him in the eyes. Eventually Emmett's babble had ceased and so had the off handed dog remarks from the blond who looked like she didn't exactly mind being put on display. "Let's go Jake," That was really all he needed before his hand squeezed her's back, he'd already turned to lead the way out with an overwhelming surge of hope and a little smugness filtered through his emotions. Sure this really meant nothing in the long run but it was a few minutes with her and that meant the world. It was easy to ignore the mini vampire up until one point two seconds ago. He knew the tone and disgust already filtered onto his expression. Could they not leave anything alone? What the fuck did it matter to her if they had a few moments? Why were they always getting in the fucking way? “Bella...” Alice's sing song yet incredibly pouty voice was enough to cause him to turn back around, irritation visualizing on his features as Jacob's eyes narrowed and his brows pulled together. Momentarily his eyes settled on the leech that had moved a little too close a disgusted look solidified in a picture perfect state. It had never been Jacob's fault and that should have remained to be entirely too clear. It wasn't his fault the blood suckers had up and left her for dead, and it certainly wasn't his fault that Alice had 'just got her back' it wasn't hard to decode the small movements and slight changes in her features though and while he didn't get the message sprawled out in front of him, he had an idea.
It was when her fingers snapped out wrapping around Bella's wrist that things took a different course. Jacob's hand slipped out of Isabella's as he spun around completely full on to the little leech, that was about the same moment his instincts took over, a snarl ripped from his throat, his hand tightly wrapped around Alice's wrist, attempting to release the grasp on Bella. "Don't touch her,"
